(2) Post-Intensive Week Blues

It’s only been three days since training ended, but it feels like so much longerIntensive Week was an exhausting, amazing, surreal experience. I thought the slump that came after Intensive Week would take longer to reach me than three days, but here I am, looking back at old pictures (old meaning from last weekend) and really feeling the absence of my classmates, teachers, and the OM place.

I expected this. I knew that after such a life-changing experience, I wouldn’t leave and feel totally normal. It’s like coming down off of a vacation high, only multiplied by a lot. I love my job working with kiddos, I love my family, and I love my life, but I also am feeling the hole left in my heart by my experience at teacher training.

It’s easy for me to hyper-focus on things that make me feel bad. It would be REALLY easy for me to only think about how sad I am that teacher training is over. But taking the easy road rarely leads to growth.

So rather that only be bummed out that my awesome journey through teacher training is over, I’m turning my eyes toward the now and toward the future. Thanks to that amazing experience that I’m so thankful to have had, I can teach yoga, and touch lives, and be touched by things I otherwise wouldn’t have been aware of. Teacher training has opened all kinds of doors for me–professionally, personally, emotionally, psychologically, and physically–and to ignore that, or to focus on what was behind the door originally would lessen that gift.

I’m still sad that training is over, that I don’t get to share long, hard, wonderful days with my friends, but I’m excited for what’s happening now, and what’s going to happen.

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These two beautiful ladies helped me open this door, and I’m forever thankful that they were my teachers, and my friends.
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6: Intensive Week (Part 1)

Normally I post one blog for each month of training, but given the fact that this last month of training lasted 9 days, rather than 2, I’m gonna split this post up.

The last nine days feel like weeks instead of days–and I mean that in a really lovely way, not in a “oh my God, that took FOREVER” kind of way. They were just nine very long, intense days, and I’m outrageously thankful for every single second.

There are so many stories to share, so many jokes, tears, conversations, photos, and thoughts. A lot of those things need to stay in my heart and head (for now), but in the meantime, I want to share some things about this week here.

During this last week of YTT, I learned exactly how amazing all my classmates are. I’ve known since day one that they were all incredible people, but now I also know that they’re incredible teachers. I got to take many of their classes (for some, it was their first class ever!), and each and every one was amazing and beautifully reflected the person teaching it. I feel honored and blessed to have been able to be part of that. I also got the opportunity to have longer conversations with people who I normally didn’t get to talk to a whole lot (when you only see people for one weekend a month, and during that weekend you take class after class after class and then go home, it’s hard to get in good convo time with everyone), which was amazing. It was crazy to fully realize for the first time what an extraordinary group I was privileged enough to be part of.

Right now, everything is still kind of a blur for me. Nine days filled with asana, studying, learning, asana, eating, drawing, meditating, pranayama, asana, tests, sidewalk chalk, medicine cards, asana, and lots of talking has currently overwhelmed my brain (in a lovely, happy way). I want to sit down later and write out individual stories, individual moments of clarity and beauty to share with you, but for now, I’ll just say this:

The Om Place class of 2014 is one of the most incredible, beautiful groups of people I’ve ever been part of. The energy each and every person shared with me over the last nine days and over the last six months is something I’ll never forget, and will carry with me into my teaching and into my life. I’m grateful beyond words to know each and every person that I learned with, and wish each and every one of them the very best of luck in their lives, in their teaching, and in their practice.

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Stay tuned for some individual Intensive Week lessons and adventures!